Going back to work blues


I have to go back to work on Mon and I'm having a really hard time imagining how I'm going to actually leave my baby... She will be with her dad full time for 10 weeks so that's somewhat comforting but she doesn't take a bottle or eats just an ounce over like 5 min out of it and then cries and asks for my boob. 😭 We tried so many times and even in her sleep she wouldn't do anything different. We tried different bottles too. We don't have any option but just jump into into on Monday and see how it goes. I have so much anxiety about it and so much sadness. I know it will get better but right now I feel so lonely with this overwhelming sadness, I don't have anyone to talk to about it who would understand. I hate that maternity leave is so short in US that mothers have to choose between work and breastfeeding. 😟