Posting here again

I posted here a year and a half ago and didnt think I'd be back but here I am. 4 losses in 18 months. 21 weeks, 13 weeks, 10 weeks, and just today 5 weeks. This time I didnt even let myself get hopeful and good thing considering it only lasted a week. This one was also unexpected as we weren't trying and only had sex once but my husband was so excited for a fresh roll of the dice.

I'm learning that shit happens to everybody and just because you had your heart set on one path, its not what you get. I'm 39 and cant keep doing this. Feeling like I need a new path.