My boyfriend has more of connection with our baby than me

When my son cries I just panic. I’m not sure if Its because I’m with him basically by myself 24/7 unless I’m at work. But if my boyfriend is actually being a parent and not sleeping or playing video games he gets my son to calm down right away.

Like tonight I was letting my son cry for a few minutes because nothing I was doing helped and I just thought maybe he needed a little time to cry it out ( nothing long like 5 minutes) a minute in he comes in and picks up our son who instantly stopped crying. I feel like a shit mom. I’m the one always with my son and I still don’t know what he wants most of the time