Just need an outlet

Just found out another person in our group of friends is pregnant. I know I’m being selfish but I can’t help but think, why not us? We have been together for 9 years, married for 2. We have a loving home, good jobs and a wonderful marriage.

I am so done with the heartbreak, so done with feeling pissed that it’s someone else and not us. So done with constantly thinking/wondering what’s wrong with us. done with silently excusing myself from the table to cry so my husband and friends don’t see.

We just want our baby, we have waited SO LONG for this baby; and yet it is so much easier for everyone around us.