Oral sex

✨Izzi✨ • in a relationship // plan to be child free.
He's gone down on me but I've never given him (or anyone else) a blowjob... I've only just given him a hand job recently and we've been having sex for like a month (daily). 
I hate the idea of being in control or being watched it totally freaks me out and I have zero confidence 😖😖😖
Any one else had a similar experience??