I wish I wasn’t so dumb. I don’t know what I was expecting from writing this post but it’s late and I’m in my thoughts. I have always know that I wasn’t as smart as my cousins or my boyfriend but it hurts when it’s pointed out that you are the dumbest person in the room. I don’t play games such as heads up or catch phrase with my family because I get yelled at if I’m on a team and I can’t figure it out while everyone else is doing a lot better. A while ago my boyfriend and I were talking we he was talking about something deep and educated and he wanted me to respond and I tried responding to him in a way he was talking about but I just couldn’t and he was getting frustrated with me and he tells me, “why can’t we ever just have an educated conversation?” He did apologize after he realized I was hurt and he knows that I know I’m not that smart and how I feel about it. I just always feel like shit because of it. I’m about to work on my Bachelors and I just feel like I’m never going to make it.