Today I decided to give up trying to get pregnant...

I accept that it will probably never happen for me...

I accept the fact I so badly for 5 years wanted to have a baby, and finally getting pregnant 3 months ago and having a miscarriage was suppose to happen... & I’ll never be able to change that.

All the effort, all the tears, all the depression, heartache and jealousy of those who it so easily happens for... I’m done being that person...

I finally give up. I don’t have any more fight left in me. & I only have myself fighting this battle. I can’t talk to anyone about it.. my fiancé doesn’t understand, he just thinks it’s going to happen so easily... but doesn’t realize it took 5 years to get pregnant, just to have a miscarriage... & nobody wants to hear me even fantasize of one day having a family... nobody understands the heartache of what I’ve been dealing with.. how depressed I feel constantly, the blame I put on myself... & sadly nobody wants to hear me... & every time I look around the people closest to me are getting pregnant...

So I just give up... I accept what will never be... 💔💔💔