TTC/Masturbating rant

This is the first month since February that my husband and I would be together (due to working out of town) during the fertile window where taking clomid made sense. So we discussed it and went for it. So here I am starting peak according to my opk. We have had sex atleast once a day since the 15th just for fun. My hubby has a high sex drive so I try not to make this "painful" by making him wait every other day. We already don't see each other for 2 weeks out of every month due to his job (out of state oil rig). Well, the other night I was super tired, had to be up at 4am for work, and it was 10pm. I wanted to go to bed. We had been intimate earlier that day. Well, that night I said "no". I could tell he was disappointed. Fast forward to the next day... I was planning to come home from work, have a nice dinner, and get busy with sexy time. Also, my opk had a beautiful flashing smile that afternoon. Well, I found out he masturbated 3 times that morning. Pissed is not the word to explain my level of aggravation. His defense was, "Well I was really horny thi morning." Wtf! I could have handled him masturbating once but 3 times. REALLY?!?!? UGH!

It just made me feel like I was wasting my time. He already knows the reasons he needed to not do that so explaining it again is just more aggravating. I know yesterday wasn't my absolute peak, but Im doing everything I can to maximize this opportunity because this month and september are our last ttc attempts. We're letting it go after that if we are not successful. So I feel like he needs to be working with me. Not against me. I have read plenty of article about how yes the number of sperm will be less, but not so much that masturbating regularly should not matter. But why did he have to be so greedy as to go for a triple play?!?!? Needless to say, I emotionally was not up for sex last night. And I wasn't going to force myself for the sake of this... It would have been some lonely sex.

Now its the next day and I want to try but I have a bit of a grudge inside me. And I woke up with a scratchy throat and white coating. Lol! FML. So i think im catching something. Smh. I don't really know if Im was looking to simply vent or if I need some advice or a pick me up.