I really wish I was prepared to know that conceiving would 1) incredibly difficult and 2) soul crushing... ok a little dramatic on the “soul crushing” part but waiting to see if I’m pregnant each month, thinking that I am, FEELING like I am, buying and taking tests, getting a big fat negative, THINKING the test is broken, re-testing to be sure... An endless and tiring cycle. I’ve lost a little bit of encouragement on “trying” cause I spontaneously stopped getting my period. I’ve been watching birth vlogs lately too and I’ll burst out in tears. Hopefully my husband and I can get our little love bug soon. Anyway I’m gonna cry and binge eat a bag of chips.

Love and baby dust to you all ✨♥️