I just gave birth to a beautiful baby girl named Ka’leyah yesterday. Soon after, the doctors said she has ABO incompatibility disease and she has Jaundice because of it. They’ve been sticking my poor baby in her feet 2-3 times a day to check her blood to see if her liver is getting rid of the bilirubin in her blood. I’ve been trying to breastfeed her but it’s hard because they have her in the nursery most of the time and they only bring her out when they “think” she’s ready to feed. My time with her is rushed and limited and often she’s sleepy and won’t feed. She also doesn’t like the formula they tried to give her. I know it’s good that they caught this early because it could be much worse if it went undetected. Today I tried to go see her in the nursery through the window but that wasn’t a good idea. As soon as I saw her in the box with the mask on I started crying and I’m not the crying type. I’ve been crying since yesterday. I feel so bad for crying because I know there’s some women whose babies are in the NICU getting fed through tubes or some don’t even get to leave with their babies. I feel like crying is being ungrateful for my beautiful baby girl who’s alive and well as far as we know. I’m just sad because I miss her and I wish it was me getting pricked in the foot over and over again instead of her. No offense to anybody whose going through a worse situation than me but I really need some encouragement right now....