So in May of this year (2019) we lost our daughter at 21 week, we had to terminate for medical issues. I am currently 13 weeks pregnant tomorrow. My OB office is a rotating staff so I can see someone different every time. I DO NOT LIKE THIS! So the first 2 drs I saw told me I needed to have an amnio to make sure the same issues don’t pop up or rather to be aware of those issues if they are found. This made me extremely nervous. I know about the risks but I found some sort of peace doing this knowing I would have a 100% yes or no at the end. The dr I saw this last time (which is the one I saw through my last pregnancy) told me that he didn’t recommend the amnio. He wants to me to go see y’all to my high risk dr about options and he also recommend a certain blood test the AFP. I got a call from my high risk dr and they just want me to come in for an anatomy scan at 19 weeks. Which my 20 weeks scan last pregnancy is when we found out some not so good news. I’m just really anxious to have to wait for so long. I hold my breath every ultrasound. I’m just so afraid of something going wrong. I don’t think I’ve ever wanted something so bad in my life. I just want my baby to be strong and healthy. I got back to my regular OB in three week. I think I’m going to ask about the AFP test since it’s not invasive and go from there. My anatomy scan won’t be until the 10th of October. It’s just so far away. We haven’t told anyone this pregnancy that we are expecting except a few close friends. Last time we were heading home for our baby shower and had to cancel. and tell everyone why. It’s not something I want to go through again. So we trying to wait until we get a good scan in October. It’s so hard to be going through this with out being able to talk to my mom about it.