I feel like I'm not special 💔💔💔

Last night my boyfriend wanted to have sex and I didn't.. When I told him I wanted to wait till I got on birth control he gets mad and sucks his teeth. I didn't want to upset him so I let him have it. I feel so lost in this relationship because we're not married and I'm always asking myself why am I with him?

I do my best to stay a family but how important is our relationship really?

Background: My boyfriend and I have been together for 8 years (tomorrow). Well today I had my appointment to get my IUD inserted and he wasn't home to take me to my appointment and he knew I had to go there. I had my 3rd child 10 weeks ago and we don't need any more kids right now (financially).

Every year was the same when our anniversary came around: he would forget and not get me anything. Every year I would get him gifts and celebrate, last year was his first time getting me something. I know it's not always about the gifts but when someone forgets a special day it makes the other person feel worthless.

I'm not even excited about tomorrow anymore. I'm unhappy and I want tomorrow to be over with.