I‘m starting to hate my family

My family have used and abused me financially and mentally and I can’t stand it any longer. They’ve made me want to kill myself on more than one occasion and I’ve even attempted twice.

I just talked to them and all of them just ridicule me. I really can’t wait to get a car and never come back. I’ll live out of my car if I have to. I just can’t believe they can treat their child the way they do. You’d think the people you can turn to for anything would be your family. I had to go on a bike ride to clear my head and these dark thoughts are just coming back and I just figured venting here will allow me release them instead of bottling them up.

You don’t have to respond but I just appreciate prayers.