My husband sucks

Maybe this should go in rant and please forgive my misspelling, i am dyslexic.

My husband and i have been getting into it for a while now . Its been rough on me especially. Ive been falling into depression which isnt a result but doesnt help.

Like yesterday we went grocery shopping and before we left i could tell he was in a mood. I didnt wanna go to the store with him because he can be very confrontational in public and irs embarrassing. I told him as much and he denied it and told me to give him a chance to prove himself. I said no a hundred times it felt like until i gave in. The second we get a cart he got mad at something i said, something i cant remember. Before things could escalate i became quiet and stayed where i was. He walked away and made it very far claiming to believe that i was following him. He doesnt walk more than 10ft without checking for me but made it through the store. I gave him the list and waited in the car.

Today we are laying in bed about to go to sleep and arguing about sleep space. I told him to scoot over. He rolled over and ended up at the end of the bed, i told him that physics would tell him that if he scooted instead of rolling he would have more room. So he became upset with me for my wording. I measured the distance between us and he has a FOOT of room he wasnt using after he ‘fixed it. Meanwhile im scrunched on the edge literally.

Its just so annoying. I cook and clean, i fight depression. Things are hard at work. Ive been kind and understanding to his problems UNTIL now. I told him i need him fo be kind and understanding to me and he cant. Now im wondering if we are growing apart. He doesnt approve of my major change. Its been so much trying to do this already and the one other person on the planet who is supposed to love me and support me is an asshole.

The worst part is that he wants me to believe all of this is my fault. That im making a big deal out of nothing. Hes literally yelled at me in public. Every night i cant sleep bc he keeps scooting closer to me trying ti cuddle even when i say no. If i ask him about it he says he doesn’t remember. These little things that happed DO matter and contribute to bigger problems that HE is causing. He makes me feel like i do nothing to help it unless i take blame. He says i have a seniority complex and can’t accept blame. I do accept blame a lot but i wont for something i know i did right. I apologize and admit im wrong at every step. Uhg im so upset.

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