Is it positive?

So I’m two days late to have my period and I’ve taken a test to me it had a very faint line then, I took a second one during the night which is shown below. I don’t know whether my eyes are lying to me or what but it seems like a faint line again. So what do you guys think? Plus I really want it to be positive, every time it comes back negative it just crushes me. But I believe that everything happens for a reason.

This is the test I took now... it’s so faint that I don’t even know whether it is or not or I’m seeing stuff. Don’t know what to think. ☹️