Months after the loss

I would have been 17 weeks tomorrow. It will officially be 6 weeks since we found out that baby stopped growing. Nothing hurts more than Wednesday’s other than Monday’s (when the actual miscarriage happened). I still don’t feel like myself but hopefully I will soon. Just got my first period since the mc so hopefully after this we will try for our rainbow baby. It’s sucks trying and trying and then for you to feel your pregnancy literally slip away without knowing and watch a man , a dad, the love of your life feel as if it’s even remotely possible it’s his fault. I wouldn’t wish this on ANYONE not even my worst enemy. We at least feel better thinking baby is up in heaven with his grandpa so we know he’s safe and helping him watch over all of us. 🙃😣😇 #4in1 #feb2020 #angelbaby