Opting for a c-section??

Meredith • Mom to a handsome little man💙 Due with b/g twins February 2020!

Am I crazy to be thinking about asking for a c-section? I am due to have twins in February (really January) and my SO and I are leaning towards asking for a c-section. My OB said we had the option of doing so. I vaginally delivered my son almost 5 years ago, but sucked at pushing and he had to be vacuumed out. I worry if baby A is head down and baby B is breech that they may not turn and have to go through both a vaginal delivery and c-section, or I will suck at pushing them out as well. I feel I am able to handle pain well and I have a lot of help once the babies get here, but I don’t know which way to go. Kind of hoping when it’s time to deliver baby A will be breech and I won’t have to decide because it will need to be done anyway. I know that sounds terrible. I just want my babies both delivered safely. My son spent 4 days in the NICU and I can’t fathom going through that again even though I stand a higher chance of NICU time with having twins. 😩😩