Venting post!

Naee

Just need to vent ladies since I really can’t talk to my husband about it. My father passed away a month ago and I’ve been ttc for about 3 years. 2 miscarriages. Well I’ve been trying harder to get pregnant these last few months given that my dad was sick and that was the main thing he talked about. Last week I took 4 pregnancy test, two were prominent positives and the other two were faint lines. Scheduled doctors appointment and get there today and I’m told that I’m not pregnant. Im so lost for words and have so many questions. Im in a sunken place that I don’t know if I can get out of it. Just need some encouragements because my husband doesn’t understand how it feels so he is like it will be alright. Im not okay😞.