So here’s a little story that i really want to tell : So I got accepted into a nursing program at a college that was 5 min. away from me and little did I know that it would be really tough and there would have so many rules and ways that you could get kicked out of the program. Well one of those rules was if you failed the final, you were out of the program! It didn’t matter if you had a B in the class , if you failed the final by 1 question, you were out! Well I made it through my first semester and I started my second semester and I ended up failing the final by 4 questions! I was devastated! All my dreams and my future was gone (or so I thought at the time) , I tried to get back in the program by doing anything possible to get in and I really worked my butt off to get accepted again, but unfortunately I wasn’t accepted. So then I started looking for new schools & finally when I found a school , I found out recently that I wouldn’t be able to apply without my CNA license (which I don’t have atm)! So I’m devastated again! I’m really trying hard to get accepted into a nursing program and graduate with a bachelor’s!

Another thing I wanted to say is that , I don’t have the best support from my family members. My mom, sister and boyfriend support me no mater what But the rest (aunts, cousins) don’t! They make me feel like I’m a failure and that I should have a career by now since I’m 23 and that I’m a burden to my mom (because I live with my mom atm & even though my mom has never said anything bad to me about living with her). My family judges and says their opinions without thinking and I feel like they’re toxic (most of them). They say that family is always there and supportive but in my case , I don’t think that’s true.

I just wanted to vent because I’m so hard on myself ! I always feel pressured with what I have to do and accomplish! I know deep down I’m trying my hardest to succeed and be something and I’m trying not to let any family members put me down. I honestly would rather stay away from all of them so I wouldn’t have to hear their answers or hear their questions about what I’m doing with my life. I feel like a failure at times because I know I should be doing more ! But I feel so miserable and I’m just praying that everything does happen for a reason and that maybe with all these setbacks , I’ll get accepted to a really good school! 😣