So I had my child 2 months ago. I TOLD MY DAMN MID WIFE A MONTH AGO THAT I WAS BECOMING DEPRESSED!!! She then tells me to try therapy I explained to her I’ve tried it numerous time before and it don’t help me. Then she tells me to wait and see how I feel at my next apt. Next apt comes and I’m worse, the nurse tells her and the mid wife said she didn’t have time to see me. Okay fine. NEVER RETURNS MY CALLS NOTHING!! Then tells me to go to my pcp! Excuse me! When do you think I have time to go to my pcp who mind you I call and is t available until January. I’m about to explode.

I love my son but I am getting so frustrated with his constant crying so fast that I’m having a fucking break down typing this. I feel like such a terrible mom because I just want him to stop crying. No matter what I do he just cries and his father is no help because he’s too busy on his video games. Like wtf. You’re a grown ass man get tf off the game and help me! Not to mention I’m back at work so I get ABSOLUTELY NO SLEEP AND HAVE TO GO WORK 9 hours! It’s legit starting to take a lot out of me. I am constantly having migraines and no medication is helping, I cry constantly, I don’t eat. Like this isn’t fair. This isn’t what I expected. This is fucking hard.

Not only did I almost die from severe preeclampsia, I didn’t even find out I was pregnant until I was 6 months I still had my period and and iud. No symptoms just thought I was getting fat lol. Then a month later I’m admitted into the hospital where I stay a month and then out of no where have to have an emergency C-section. My life changed so quick. I didn’t get to plan the way I wanted to.

I’m so overwhelmed.