Hello.

I'm glad I found this group but I wish it was more active. I've pretty much been depressed/low self esteem since I was young. I've always been compared to my little sister & she was the "prettier" one. I wore glasses (contacts now) and my teeth are crooked. Ive always been called ugly. I am in the military and I failed my promotion board because I'm quiet and have no confidence. I haven't had confidence my whole life so how can I have it for work? Im feeling very stressed & depressed about it. I don't know what to do, I love my job but how do I fake confidence? I feel like I'm not gonna go far because of this. I feel like I don't really have anyone to talk to. My infertility really doesn't help depression either. I use to talk to a counselor but I feel like she wasn't very helpful, all she would do is just ask how my week was. The present is not my problem, I am sad and hurt over the past: infidelity, miscarriage, the cause of my infertility. The psychiatrist wouldn't give me meds he told me to work out and it will get better. I have been working out everyday & I've lost almost 20 lbs. My feelings haven't changed. I'm sorry this is so long, I guess I just needed to let everything out