You're boring and depressed

We've been together for 4 1/2 years , married for 2, TTC but no luck. We still live with your roommate who is also you're best friend, our sex life consists of me on top and giving you head, in other words boring because you give the last on your energy to him .

I just want passion, romance, I want to feel alive . The thought of being with another man is a thought I think about more and more . But I can't bring myself to actually do it because I love you and you're the man I want. But no matter how many times I talk to you , you just don't get it. I want to save up and move out but all my efforts are in vain .