Frustrating

My cycles have been soooo out of whack since December so I decided to make a gyn I appt. had to wait 3 months for this appt because I’m “not a priority” since I’m not yet pregnant.

At the time of my appt I was already late by a month. I knew I wasn’t pregnant because I took a test about a week prior. I told that to the nurse but she insisted I give a urine sample. As the nurse is administering the urine test she keeps looking over at me & says “I think I see a line, now it disappeared.” At this point I’m nervous like omg maybe this is it, my time may finally be here. But I sat silent. She calls in a colleague for an extra set of eyes & they continue with the “disappearing line” act. So I spoke up telling that what they were doing was very inconsiderate. Then the nurse says to me “well you’re not on birth control & you’re having unprotected sex, you’re too young to have kids right now I just wanted to scare you a bit so you can take better precautions”.

So I snarked “well that’s what you tend to do with your husband”.

This woman angered me so much I tried so hard not start bawling.

So I finally see my doctor & explain to her what is going on & her ONLY option was to prescribe me birth control pills. I repeated to her that I’ve been ttc for the last 3 years, why would I take anything to prevent that? She then says to me she can’t help me because I’m refusing my only option. I grabbed my things & left that horrible office! I’m never going back there!

I just turned 25 last week and my time is running short. The last 3 years have been really tough & I’m not ready for 5 more of devastation.