Ok so I'm going to try to explain the best I can. Bare with me.

So I'm 29 and 39+4 days preggo. I lost a child 2 years ago. She was born with trisomy 13 and passed at 4 months old.

That being said, my father has never really been apart of my life. In and out. Always disappointing me and my sister as children. He has bi polar disorder and adhd. My whole life hes been an alcoholic and an on n off crack head. On top of that he beat my mother and every girlfriend hes ever had. He did good a few years when I was a teenager and we went over to his house alot. I loved his gf like a step mom but he screwed that relationship up and he hasn't really been around. I only saw him at family functions. Before my grandmother passed she was the only one who ever really gave him chances. Now I loved my grandmother. She was my best friend but she was an enabler. Anyway, since she passed I haven't heard from him. He got in contact with my little sister (who has serious daddy issues and also has bi polar) the relationship didn't work because she tried working for his supposed maintenance company and he constantly yelled at her and just didn't understand her bi polar. So now my sister won't talk to him.

He came to my wedding but we didnt speak. I feel like he only came for show. I dont know. But When I lost my daughter he wasn't around. He knew I was pregnant. He knew she she was sick. He may have texted a hand full of times to ask how things were going. I dont remember. Well a couple weeks ago he went to my work while I wasn't there and was asking for me. Which I thought was weird. So my mom looked online and sure enough he had just gotten out of jail for beating his wife (who decided to stay with him) he walked to my work because he wanted a ride. Anyway, he wrote me a letter from jail CLAIMING he was in rehab and was thinkig more clear and wanted a relationship with me. Me being me I can't help but feel bad for him. Since my grandmother died hes had no one. His sister moved to Florida and she is finally living a great life and won't talk to him. Well hes been texting me and at first I was talking back but it really sounded like he was giving me a bunch of bs. I haven't told him I kno he was really in jail not rehab. Lately he texts me and asks if the baby is here yet. Because he wants to come by and see her when she's born. I feel really bad for him but a big part of me is bitter because he only wants to know about my baby and not me. Obviously I'm not jealous its jus I feel like he feels hes entitled to meet my child when hes never been there for me. I absolutely hate confrontation especially because I'm back and forth between bitterness and feeling bad. so I haven't said anything. I'm scared he will do something to himself because I feel like I'm all he has left. Idk what to do. He obviously doesn't deserve my attention but then again underneath all his issues I kno hes a good guy with a big heart. Or maybe I just remember a good side of him. I dont know. I just dont know what to do. Any advice? I'm tired of feeling bad for him and upset with his entitlement at the same time.