HELPP😔

I made a mistake. Im a very faithful loving person but good people have their bad days too. Ive been hurt, cheated on, lied to and because of that I almost cheated. I was in the process of betraying the person I love, for nothing. But I’ve been hurt by him so much that I just had a moment of weakness and didn’t care to think about my actions. I’m doing everything I can to prove my love but it feels useless, like I’m wasting my breath fighting for something that will never be the same again. I really don’t want to give up. Help! Advice, kind words, something