I had a lot happen during and after the birth of my son. He almost didn’t make it and then i almost died as well. We are both very strong now but 6months later and I’m just so tired and just so angry at everything. I also lost my dad 2 years ago so it seems that everything has just come to a head now. I’m not sure if I’m processing very late but I’m at the point where it’s hard to enjoy days. It’s hard to look forward to the next thing. I love my son so much but sometimes I have such indifference then I feel so horrible for it. Sometimes I have anger at my husband for going to work and being able to sleep lol. I’m thinking I need to start seeing if his grandpa will take him every so often so i can do something for myself once and a while.