Heyy guys please don’t judge. I’m apologizing in advance for the really long “story”

So I’m 13 and I’m constantly hating everything about my life, including myself.

I cut myself often because I’m so sad. My friend has told me to tell someone like my mom, but I can’t tell her because she will be so upset and disappointed. She will also send me to a psychologist and that is the one thing I wouldn’t do, because I don’t let people in or talk to anyone because I don’t like to cry especially not in front of people. The reason I don’t like crying is because I don’t like to make myself that vulnerable.

I find myself waking up most mornings wondering what’s the point in living? No one cares about me, and that’s not just magically going to change over night. And that’s when I start to cut...

I do it because I’m always put under stress and when I’m stressed my anxiety is hella bad.

My home life stresses me because my parents constantly fight and I’ve come to a realization that I’m the mistake of the family because I was unplanned, whereas my brother is the perfect son and the favorite.

I’m writing exams in 3 days and I haven’t studied because I’m so sad and stressed and anxious that I’ll fail.

I also have to chose what high school stream I want to take by Monday which is even more stressful because I’m literally deciding my future.

I’ve also made a promise that I would not ever make my problems anyone else’s again. Because I can’t have them being used against me ever again.

I’m sorry for wasting anybody’s time, by making you guys read about my problems, I’m sure you have enough problems of your own.

I just needed to let it all out.