I need 100% honesty and 0% judgement.

Does anyone else have a favorite child? or just 1 with whom you feel closer to than the other one(s)? I have a 9 year old son and 1 year old daughter. My son is by a previous relationship and I raised him completely on my own for 6 years until I met my fiancé. I always refer to my son as my “number 1”...I know it’s not okay to do that but it’s how I feel. I just feel such a closeness and almost like a safeness with him. I was 22 when I had him and was NO WHERE NEAR as successful as I am now. So he and I went through the struggle together but always had each other. Idk... I really just feel closer to him than I do my daughter. 😬😬