Friend's baby...

**Jasmine**👓 • Jasmine. 30. 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦👼🏻👼🏻🌈👼🏻🌈🤰🏻
A friend of mine and her fiancé just had their first baby yesterday. She was conceived unintentionally (which is fine) but I'm not sure I can quite handle meeting the little one yet... I cried when I found out my friend was pregnant... We've been TTC for 8 months regularly and discussed it for probably a year before then. But I came to be ok with her being pregnant and obviously I know that leads to a baby... But I haven't gone to visit yet, I'm just kind of using the "I don't want to intrude on family time" "maybe we'll come by after you guys get home" etc... It just kills me that my husband and I can't seem to get our little miracle when trying and she got pregnant accidentally...
I know it's not the baby's fault obviously I'm not so self absorbed to be upset with an innocent child. Not that I'm really upset it's more depression and so many emotions...