I’m am 12 weeks postpartum and the past month I have felt depressed. I have a 14 month old and now a 2 month old. When both start crying I just started wishing that I never had my second. It was a high risk pregnancy and I was offered to terminate the pregnancy many times but I said no. I love my baby, felt a connection while pregnant. Even now I feel connected and love for my child but sometimes I think to myself that I should of just terminate and then I start crying for thinking that. I don’t want to think that but I always do. I apologize to my baby for even thinking that. I just feel like I don’t want to do this anymore. I don’t want to be a mom. I want a break.