I said I was ok with a boy or a girl...

But now that I learned #2 is a boy I am admitting to myself I wanted another girl. I’m trying to take my own advice and work through the feelings rather than pushing them down. I have one sister and we are so close, I wanted to give my daughter a chance at that. I know a few sibling pairs sister/brother that are close. I am trying to keep it in perspective. And I know one girl / one boy is many parents’ dream. I feel a bit deflated about it. I am afraid people can see my disappointment. I am afraid I won’t be as close to a son as my daughter. But I watched my husband have that fear about our daughter and they are so close. I also always said I only wanted two kids and now I am having this feeling about another daughter out there for me. Ayyy. Thanks for the vent.