This is crazy okay and I know its gross for a lot of people even myself tbh

I've been with some guys who like to have their butthole played with. Some have liked having it licked and fingered.

I've tried it with my SO a few times and hes given me mixed signals. Sometimes I cant tell if hes just being awkward and he really likes it or if hes being awkward because he doesnt want it...? I've tried just asking him of course and he says that he does just not all the time

So today my SO and I had some time alone finally and as I'm giving him a BJ I look him in the eyes and try to feel the vibe and as I'm fingering him he is kind of not reacting so I'm not sure if I should continue so I stop and keep giving him a BJ and he seems like he wanted it again so I try again and he nods but even tho he's nodding it seems like he still doesnt want it???

I ask him if he liked it and if it felt good and he says yes but idk I really cant tell

I starting doing it to spice things up but I don't want to take away his masculinity?

And please dont take offense to that last sentence. I personally love gender roles exclusively in my relationship because I find it sexy (outside of my relationship I dont care about gender roles)

My question is: should I never try it again to play it safe? Or should I wait it out and try it again?