Vbac?

I had an emergency csectoon a decade ago. I wanted to really try this pregnancy as it will be my last one. The nurse i talked to said because ive had a csection i can risk hemorrhaging and both me and baby will die. Right then and there i felt horrible and so scared because i had a tubal this past march and really did almost die in my sleep. I havent talked to my doctor yet, hes not really a talkative guy...im gonna mention it at my bext ultrasound the 19th but i feel he will push for a csection and there arent alot of obstetricians around me....im 5'4 was 185 when i got pregnant now im 200. Im doing my best not to gain alot, i gained 75lbs with my first. Im 12 wks today..