I woke up today happy a little nervous but excited to finally see my little one. I got to the doctors office and was waiting for my name to be called. This is or was my first pregnancy I wasn’t expecting to hear any bad news at my ultrasound , but that’s exactly what I got. I kept reading stories about women having miscarriages and how common it is but I never thought it would be me. My baby was supposed to be 13wks but he (obviously I didn’t know the gender but I pictured him a boy) measured at 8wks and there was no heartbeat. As soon as I saw how tiny he was I knew something was wrong and my heart sank. Today has just been a blur I was expecting to see my baby moving around but instead I heard that bad news and they gave me options on what to do next. I haven’t told any family for this very reason and I honestly don’t know how to feel. They gave me pills to take and it sucks that I’m just waiting around for pain and to basically just get rid of my baby. I know this post is a mess but I just need someone to tell me that it’s all going to be okay.

Update: just wanted to say thank you for those of you who left a comment it means a lot! I don’t really have a lot of friends to talk to so I tend to post on here when I’m feeling down so thank you again. I have been feeling a lot better, taking it day by day i know I’ll be sad for awhile but this pain won’t last forever. If you’re reading this and you are going through the same thing I just want to say that it will be okay and things will get better.