I hate him!!!!

I really don’t like my fiancé anymore.  I plan on leaving him, I just need to get things in order first because we have a 6 month old daughter together. PLEASE do not shame me for having a baby with this man.  She is the best thing in my life and not a mistake.  He, of course, has had moments that have made me fall in love with him and he is not always a bad person which is why I have stayed for so long.

I am writing out all of the reasons why I am leaving him so that when I have doubts (it’s happened before and I’ve gone back) I can look at this and remember how upset he has made me feel. Right now, I feel so angry and hurt.  He is currently mad at me because I fell asleep with her last night and didn’t hang out with him, on accident. 

A few years ago he had sex with me and recorded it while I was passed out drunk in our home.  He gave me chlamydia when we first started dating.  He has asked me to send pictures to prove where I am and who I am with many times.  He has checked my underwear.  He accuses me of cheating.  He does not like when I work-out or dress nice if it’s not just for him.  He gets mad if I don’t have sex with him almost every day.  He didn’t help me build any of the furniture for our daughter’s nursery.  He didn’t come to my first ultrasound.  He let his meth-head mother stay in our home and cuss me out.  He does not appreciate anything I do.  He punched a hole in the wall last time I told him I was leaving him.  He does not want me to go on a work trip later this month because he thinks I will cheat.  He hates my family and says I cannot bring my daughter around them until they show him “the respect he deserves”.  He points out EVERY SINGLE little thing I do wrong.  I am a good woman and a good girlfriend. I don’t deserve this.

It breaks my heart to say that I am growing to hate him.