Absolutely heartbroken

Well, tonight was supposed to be our first night of TTC.  I'm almost 33, my husband is almost 43.  We were married after 6 long years of dating in 2014, and he originally told me we could start trying after being married for a year.  Then he said he wasn't ready, and we would wait until the fall.  Last month we didn't start trying because of insurance reasons so it was finally time to start - and when I went to make the moves he said he wasn't ready yet and doesn't even know if he wants kids.  I am absolutely gutted.  I don't know what to do.  I cried for like 4 hours straight and now I don't even want to look at him.  Any advice or kind words would be appreciated.