Im scared!!!

Tee
Every month I go through this. Countless dollars towards pregnancy tests only to see negative lines. No positive line anywhere in sight. This month I just want it to be different. If AF is coming, id rather it just pop up on me. It's sad bc my SO and I want this so bad, but it just won't happen. 😔😔😔 I need to find something to occupy my time until it comes or I realize that I've missed it. My periods have been so irregular lately so I'm not even sure that I'm not already late. Who knows. This is such a frustrating journey but I look forward to my little plus sign and/or double solid lines! Looking forward to seeing that smile on His face. #waitingforourblessing