Feeling guilty

Hi! 33yo TTC #1 with high FSh/low AMH...also just recently stopped ovulating **sigh**

My best friend’s baby shower is this afternoon and I’m having a hard time keeping it together. I am honestly over the moon excited for her and love/support her. She had her own struggles getting pregnant as well. I keep crying and I’m hoping I can be genuinely happy at the shower and not “fake” happy.