So, yesterday was a very emotional day for me. I have a very stressful and long week. I’m The bookkeeper of few companies and I have to do 3 big clients in less 3 days. That take me from 8 to 10 hours to finish and do a quality control check. So from start is very stressful. Yesterday was a very emotional day.

(A little resume, I’m 32 weeks pregnant with my first baby, recently I get divorced because some issues that weren’t treated properly and we ended up divorcing, we still living together because this is he’s first child also and he want to enjoy the pregnancy and be with his baby he’s first 2 months and in the other hand he can’t pay a rent. He’s paying a brand new car that we take together before deciding divorce.)

So, yesterday I was doing laundry and then I was supposed to clean the house but I was so tired and I wanted to go to the beach that I called baby daddy to se if he want to go to the beach today and he’s answer was that today he has to do some stuffs. Ok for me. I was preparing to go to the beach and thinking who can go with me because I don’t want to go alone. Then I go out and the sky was soooo gray and cloudy ⛅️ that I go inside to change and take a shower. When I was taking a shower my brain play a hard and bad game.

Me in my brain: “You are alone, nobody want to be with you, not even your ex husband. Every one ignores you, you don’t have friends, who what to be friend of a pregnant women. Your family is pathetic, they don’t care about you. Etc...”

I stat crying so hard I get so depressed.

So I decide to get dressed and went to the movies. I feel a little cute and kind of sexy but, who want to talk to a pregnant women? Anyways, yesterday was a mess. Today I feel better.

I didn’t have morning sickness in my entire pregnancy but my brain plays hard to me. I wish I have morning sickness but also have an emotional care and love from my ex husband in this pregnancy. I need to be strong for this baby and I will.

Sorry for the long post, I just need to vent. I truly don’t have friends. Is very hard for me make friends.

Thanks for reading 🙂