I just want to cry!

Mishila • We have lost 4. 2 due to miscarriage our babygirls heartbeat stopped and 1 ectopic. Ttc for our first
Me and my SO were going to ttc. But now he wants to wait because I could of died with my last loss and it scares him he doesn't want to lose me. It's been 7 months but I just want to try again!