Ectopic Pregnancy Loss

I've been told numerous of time I would never have children. But other plans where decided. I was 6 weeks and 3 days when I had to have a emergency surgery because my pregnancy was ectopic. A life I found out about two weeks ago ripped away so soon. I had so much I wanted and was planning from clothes to pictures from kissing little toes an fingers. Imagining his or her facial features. An through it all I've been alone an very strong. But the empty feeling is eating at me. And with that also a repeating dream of me having a little girl an she crying out for me but the doctor's are holding me back from her. Idk what to do.

Feeling alone lost an hurt...