Fat gain is killing me

So I’m a young teenage girl. My average weight before becoming pregnant was 117 pounds. But now I’m up to 131! And I really don’t think I should be gaining that much this

early. I’m close to 9 weeks and people are already telling me I’m showing and I’m just like “nope that’s just fat”. And it’s sorta embarrassing and makes me feel really self conscious. In the past I had bad eating habits that were on the verge of an eating disorder. My body image has always been a huge deal to me. I lost a lot of weight the past 2 years and now I have so many cravings I’m eating 4/5 times a day when I usually ate once a day before! I walk a lot and my flat stomach just disappeared in what seemed like the past 4 or so days. It’s really embarrassing when my shirts are getting too tight and people

are telling me I’m showing when I’m really not, it’s just fat. It’s just another thing I find to get upset about. Sorry I just needed to get that off my chest somewhere.