LGBT related

Okay so I have sort of..not exactly an issue but it’s a tough thing to figure out. See I’m bisexual, I like girls and guys but the thing is, is that I don’t ever want to be intimate with a guy but I do wanna get f*cked by girls. And the reason why I don’t want to ever be intimate with guys is because I was sexually assaulted a few years back. It has stuck with me for the longest time. I have like fantasies about getting BANGED by girls and never with boys. Don’t get me wrong I do find guys really attractive just as much as females but..I don’t exactly know what to call my situation at this point. If anyone can give an explanation that’d be much appreciated. Thanks v much.