I just feel so numb right now. I keep purposely not thinking of it or the pregnancy. I never visualized myself doing this, but with 4 kids I know that I can't afford another baby. Though I know it's the best decision, I don't know how I'm going to get through this. What's killing me more is that my insurance doesn't cover the pill and I can't be put under since my husband has to get the kids to and from school that day so I'm stuck being awake during it so I can drive myself. Apparently they don't even give you anything to calm your nerves. They just numb your cervix before starting. I just don't know how to process it in my head.