yesterday i came face to face with my rapist for the first time in over a year. it was in a public place and he didn’t speak, but the way he stared completely terrified me all over again. i’ve felt strong for a while now but seeing his face made me feel like all the “progress” i’ve made was actually just me being in denial. i had constant nightmares last night, can’t eat or get out of bed, and i feel alone. i feel disgusting again, i don’t want anyone to even look at me. i’ve deactivated all social media as well, i’m terrified that anyone who sees me will see what i see. i never wanted to feel like this again, what should i do?