Feeling Hopeless .. 😔

Been wanting my 4th and last baby.. stopped BC back in March.. then started getting my periods all over the place.. Dr put me on provera to regulate them and help me conceive as well.. tracked my ovulation this month and had a peak on the 6th.. we BD only on the 4th and after a few days after 'ovulation'.. I finished my pills on the 12th.. then started spotting yesterday, today i bled but it was not heavy though .. I still considered it as a period.. Anyways.. I feel like Im never gonna be able to conceive anytime soon.. the more I think about it the less it happens.. my youngest, my son will be 2 this November, and been having bby fever .. 😭😭😩 Finished my opk so not even gonna bother to buy some more.. baby dust to all of you, not even gonna think about pregnancy anymore.. God knows when ill see that positive preg test 😔