Getting over miscarriage a year later

Hello Ladies.

Congratulations on your pregnancies. Exciting. For those ladies trying to conceive, you got this. God is with you.

In 2017, I was in a relationship with a man I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with. We planned to get pregnant and we conceived the first time we tried.

Everything was fine until one day I was having pain. I called the ambulance as this was my first pregnancy and I was so scared. My ex and I didn’t live together so when the ambulance arrived he called and they advised him I was being transported to the hospital. My ex stated he was on his way to meet us at the hospital.

At the hospital I lost the baby on the bathroom floor. I didn’t know what to do. Shock set in.

My ex boyfriend never showed up to the hospital. When I finally contacted him, he said he wasn’t picking me up and to call an aUber. I just lost your baby. I was sooooo scared.

The next day he broke up with me and told me to never call him again. He also blocked my number.

It took me up until January of this year to heal. We thought we were having a girl and was going to name her Syndey. I think about her often and thought about her yesterday.

I haven’t seen my ex boyfriend in a year.

He acted like he hated me for losing the baby.

I am in my 30s and my ex boyfriend is almost 43 years old. Who does what he did. It’s been over a year and it still hurts but my focus is me and finishing my doctorate.

If you have had a miscarriage, how did you move on or better, get closure, if any?