I don’t know how to feel about my marriage right now. So my husband is from mexico, he is in the US illegally (and just because we are married doesn’t make him legal). He hasn’t seen his parents or sister in almost 15 years, so understandably he wants to go see them. But because of his legal status, he can’t come back to the US if he leaves so he hasn’t been able to go see them. Well last night he came home and told me he was going to Mexico next year and asked if I wanted to go with him. Of course I’m confused so I ask what’s going on and how he plans on getting back, and he said he didn’t know if he would even come back. I’m completely devastated, of course I want him to be able to see his family, but that means leaving me. I can’t go live in Mexico, my life is here. I would have no way to make a living in Mexico, we would be completely dependent on his siblings that are here to send us money to live, and I can’t do that. I feel sick that he would even consider leaving and not coming back to me. I feel so stupid that I’ve been trying to build a life with him for 7 years and now he just want to leave and not guarantee he would come back to me. I don’t want to wait for him and wonder if he is coming back. I feel so lost right now.

I know I need to talk to him about this a figure it from here, but I’m at work and won’t see him for a few hours. I just needed to write this out, I don’t have anyone to talk it through with and I just feel so alone right now. I feel betrayed by him.