Am I wrong? Why do I regret this?

Okay so I had broken up with my BF. It was just reason after reason not to trust him and I still gave him the benefit of the doubt. At first we weren’t official we were just “exclusive” to each other, he tells me he’s going to be spending the weekend at a friends house out of town basically not worth just driving in for a hour or 2 so he’d go in right after work Friday and come home some time Sunday. The way he made it sound was like it was one of his guy friends. It was his best friend from work that the 2 of us were hanging out with ‘let slip’ that it was actually his ex GF... made it known that I’m not comfortable with that especially since during the week our work hours don’t always add up. It wasn’t until she had some kind of “child like episode” at 6flags did that end.

Then random girls be hitting him up asking for help cause their trying to get out of their abusive relationship, or their ex has gone insane, or whatever. Now he’s not that big, 5’6” 165lbs construction worker. Like any man he can only do so much, but if you really don’t know them why you helping them why you going over to their house or going to the gun range to ‘teach’ them how to properly shoot. His 12g short barrel isn’t something to be teaching a beginner on, like someone that literally knows nothing, then buys them Olive Garden. He swears up and down nothing happened but that sounds very familiar to our date nights🤔

Then a new girl joins the car crew, starts all this drama with a few of the other guys she hits up my bf to come get her. I kept telling him no she got her self into that mess and the one guy needs to learn to stick up for himself. This night is a very long story. I’m sorry if it doesn’t make full sense. But it was her, the one guy and another friend who has horrible game and is drunk off his ass. Drunk friend of course starts saying shit. And brings the entire car crew group chat into it saying something like “don’t get your hopes up their most likely just on one of their breaks” I’m not in the chat but I’m getting messages from everyone asking what happened between us. “Simply” because he picked her up.

She starts more drama with the car crew she’s getting “sexually assaulted” by the president who has a baby momma. Idk how true that is cause she was using him to fix her car. Then she spreads that her and my BF are together in the car group to stop that. Of course it gets to me. I ask he tells me to ignore it. But after awhile I respond with we never broke up nor been on a break...

3 weeks later he asks for a break. Later that same night he asks for the break he changed his mind, he fucking slept with that girl from the car crew (I found out like a month later. I still consider that cheating)

He moves in( I didn’t know at this point) I’m working nights, he’s basically just waking up for work when I’m coming home. I either had the night off or got off early. He’s passed out phone unlocked and he’s getting so many texts. I look to see who is texting him so early in the morning... I find out the truth. I found out about car crew girl, an other one of his ex’s and a few other girls he’s been getting nudes from... I’m taking pictures of it all on my phone as evidenced. I didn’t even go through any other app just his texts. Moment I’m done I start asking questions he spills. I made it known that this is his final chance.

Month or 2 later I’m off he’s passed out I go through his phone, I see no message from the girls from before, but I go through FB (takes pictures) nothing on insta he’s in a lot of sexual themed group chat named groups on snap, confronted like I’m not happy with it, he’s still complimenting girls.

Recently I go through again, same shit, compliments, like you don’t compliment me, finds out he bought nudes from several girls... I’m like medium weight, he got from stick thin to she needs a forklift to move around big and one thats old enough to pass as his fucking mother or a really young grandmother. Like he’s been struggling with money. Like why the fuck you buying this shit when it’s a fucking google search? I’m already furious at this point, but I go to his pictures. So much fucking porn! And some of it is like I can’t tell if he took it or simply screenshot or saved it. I could find 1 picture of us. Like I know he took pictures, but where are they?!?! I finally found a picture that was definitely taken off of his phone. And that girl he was with definitely wasn’t me... he took fucking pictures with a stripper. I don’t know what I’m more pissed about the fact he lied about his whereabouts while I was at work or the fact that I just wasted my time and made myself look like a fucking clown