Anger for survival?

Is it possible to need anger or occasional arguments to truly be happy in a relationship? I grew up in a family where arguements were common, but I hated them. I don’t like getting angry, or so I thought. Now that I am married, I find myself almost wanting the arguments. Not often, but at least occasionally. I want the heated moments that turn to apologizes, forgiveness, and deeper love... am I crazy? Is this crazy?